well as of now i am recovering from the cold, fever and body pain... and the best remedy is eating.. which is ALL i have been doing these few days... and this brings me to the point i wanted to make ( i always have to start like this dont i!!)
the point is...(yes there is one) i dont like to be dependent on anything/ anyone... so i do everything in excess hanging out with people, coffee, ice cream, choclates blah blah blah.. till i can get it out of my system... its sort like a wierd version of all or nothing at all...
and when i crave it i want it... "saw it, wanted it, threw a fit; GOT it!"
there was a point not too long ago when i would eat like packets of sweets.. and now i cant look at it... i dont know why that is... everything is done till im sick of it and then i move on...
everything seems to me as just a matter of possession... sort of like a twisted cat and mouse game.. wondering who will tire of the obsession first!! and once i have it its like whatever the fuck..
at the present moment its subway sandwiches. and juice. im loving it at the moment but like next week i will not be able to look at it...
but my first love coffee will not change... no matter how much i consume. and but of course music... but in that too i went through obsessive phases....
variety i guess is the spice of life... but then again too much of anything is bad for anyone!
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