cyclic.

sometimes i feel like i am searching. always searching. from tangible to the intangible. for that nice top. for a good buy. for that elusive peace of mind. i wish sometimes things will be like a magic show. tada and you have it. or you dont have it. the suspense is over in a few minutes. i have learnt that i hate waiting. waiting for people, for an event, anything. just generally hate waiting. the anticipation of things is a whore. cause it leads to expectations which is the mother of all bitches.

wanting /searching - waiting - anticipation - expectation - disappointment. root of all causes is my want. now to attempt to curb it.

having my cake and DEF eating it too!

so i have had a cupcake obsession for a while. seeing numerous cupcakes (dreams and otherwise) pictures i started to ask people where to get them from. i finally managed to get hold of a lady near my house who will make them for me. 12/15 at a time. and she made the cutest ones i have seen. they are all vanilla flavored with various icing options! i have learnt from various cupcake trials that i like the gooey heart/artery clogging ones the best! if your going to die might as well enjoy a taste of heaven!

next week brownie with fudge icing trial!