Sunday, May 07, 2006
closure
at times i get too close to people that daily life is a pissoff if i am pissed of by/with/at them.. life looks all rosy if im in a happy mood cause of them. this dependency was eating me from within. i was reacting to them. to their moods.. blah. blah. before i went to mangalore i was constantly dependent on others.. i was double checking my decisions/ thoughts whatever.. whatnot! with them.. somehow the trip has changed me. sort of like made me more indifferent. if that was possible! now i react lesser. and i realised that i donot depend on the same people for my daily life. i know they are but a part of my life. and i can manage fine without them. i am both happy ( at the closure) and sad on one level.. that i am yet to figure out why.. but closure is damn liberating. its like there are no ties.. nothing holding you back. more importantly no one holding you back. me back. ;)
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is it kinda like.....
before, u needed other people/their opinions to live ur life/stay happy....and now u've realised u dont need anyone to do so?
closure is good.but the certainity it brings with itself is double-edged.it does cut u off from the person.but it also makes it tough to make contact later if you need the person again.
but the feeling of being your own master is greater than having to rely constantly on some one else's judgement.
if this independence demands closure.then i think its a price we should be willlin to pay.nothing comes free.
i dont know about opinions...but its like i was very dependent on them.. like what they said would matter to me.. matter a lot! it ws seriously sad for someone like me who realy needs space and independence..
yeah nothing comes free.. and ur totally right about the not able to make contact later part!! i mean the equation changes! for the btter or worse.. i guess time will tell... but im think the end of evry relationship is near if the concept of space is violated..
Thought provoking, yes!
Being clingy sucks! Even clingy people!
True happiness in always an intrinsic quality and achieving that state is bliss though a little too difficult.
Cheers!
P.S:- I am back to my old blog
@jyoey: welcome back.. what happened with the old blog?? i mean all the posts??
GfG..Gone for Good!
P.S:- The previous one was actually my second blog,deleted m first poesy blog too!
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