sometimes i wonder if im one dimensional. like mentally. i have a couple of things that i like. somethings i dont. and it does not change much. im trying to see how much i have changed with my various experiences and contact with different people i have met. the thing is that i am who i am. i am always open to new interpretations. always, always respect an opinion. but i have mine and i shall stick to it come hell or high water. maybe it has to with the fact that if its mine then if i fuck up i am to blame. if i rock the joint; well its my tune rocking the joint typa thing.
maybe.
moving on. i have always felt i am a difficult person to live with. offlate i have been realising that it might just be impossible to live with me. like for life type of thing. if i am like your flatmate i shall probably be your favourite person, since im highly non judgemental, and extremely indifferent (dont know that is a good thing). but if i am looking at life partner (i dont want to say husband. i break into cold sweat) i have sooooo many space issues. i think i am best from a distance.
this is not some sympathy rant. its more of an observation. emotional detatchment enables me to scrutinise everything from a distance..
though moving on, yesterday was some random bonding session with father and brother. if mother was there session would have abruptly stopped. i saw "chak de" yesterday. was ok. though i thought they chose an interesting bunch of girls :) brother goes on overdrive when we see these 'sports films'. inevitably they all are those under dog stories. and he will force me to watch it as well.
i told father " i will pay for my laptop, papa". and father has taken it to heart. so mac book pro on its way i think. zero bank balance.
and i have been in such a cranky mood off late. and so anti-social its quite a nice tale.
also i have made many many resolutions to hit the gyma and get some exercise. maybe i should start today. usually its always maybe i should start tomorrow. lets see.
and grandparents have wandered off to goa. and then mangalore. so its partay time without them till 4th! :)
3 comments:
lover,
I got ur message, my validity had run out and i was runing like a mad woman packing stuff. Anyway in muscat now.
oh and it takes a special sort of person to know u well. Being a needy creep isnt normal either. So not to worry. Indifference usually isnt good in flatmates. I've realised the hard way , better to be social and involved just not TOO involved.
Hmmmm..I am pretty sure 99% of people feel the way you are feeling:). My bro. has told this to me once. I was thinking the same thing 2 days ago:).
I am sure your 'life partner' is thinking the same thing;). But, I also think most people are nice.
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