Wednesday, June 28, 2006
thought for the day.
everyday you learn something new and wierd about yourself.. not that isnt the thought. more like an introduction.. so lets get cracking, well today i learnt that if i meet people who might be connected to accquaintances i know then i wont open up to them... its like i want people as single entities.. without a background. a history. past. when i meet people i want to meet them and not know there are fifty others out there who know them. not know them better... just know them.. that alone is irksome...but this is not to say that i think people are possesions (spelling?). far from it actually. i know that people will have past... inevitably the world is a damn village... but once in a while when i do meet people i relate to i want..... well i want them for myself.
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Ah...u would make one 'possessive' (the spelling!) girlfriend!
possessive is not how i see myself... or more importantly, not how i would like to see myself...but..considering that this with people who i meet for the first time( and can relate to.)and dont think im going to meet again is it too bad to hope they donot know people i know..
is it kinda like
as if u want ur realtionship with them to be a bit exclusive/special....something that cannot be superseeded easily by others relationships with that person???
cause u've put in effort in keepin the ties alive/bringin them to a certain stage/"knowing" them and u dont wanna see its importance seemingly reduced by someone else...a third person.
is it so?
or am i gibberin? ... ;)
ok ur reading way to much into what i said!lol! i never even thought about all this...
umm what i meant was that at times u connect to some people u met say at a party.. or get together.. and u connect with them... and then i realise that there are fifty other people who i know, kno the other person as well... and well then it ust irritates me.. its not like i plan to marry the other person or anything.. maybe jus the concept of connecting.. and living in the moment.. forgetting others.. i guess..
oh and after the pratay i would not be interested in keepingin touch.. its just superficial contact.. then move on.
lol!...yeah..i have my "overthinkin" hat on constantly nowadays...;)
hope i get it right now....bear with me if i dont ;)
on re-readin...heres what i got..
u find it difficult to be honest with people you can relate to,when they are connected to you someway.
its a familiar feeling.but yeah...quite odd.
the contact you make with them is with them only.its like something direct.with no one in between.
i dont think this is possessive at all.
simply put...since u relate to these people.the contact u make ,is something that u want to be personal.like a one 2 one thingy.
nothin more.
when they are connected via acquaintances...the value of that moment is reduced.
its no more direct/honest/personal.
but then
what if u find out later ,abt the connectons via acquaintances??....then does the contact (u made) become diluted or becomes artificial in some way??..and becomes kinda weird ..and you change your behaviour towards the person ?
hmmm.... it depends on WHO they know.. if its my close friends.. homies.. then no worries... but if its the 95% i dont give a fuck for.. that is when the prob starts.. and i start to back off.. i think blow hot and cold wayy to often.. not good. not good at all.
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